As I sit on my brothers back porch of their new home in Tennessee,
staring at the lake, I contemplate my approaching departure back to the
Africa Mercy. My heart has experienced many different feelings and emotions in the
last 2 months and there are many more to come. At the end of May I said goodbye
to many close friends including every elementary teacher that I’ve taught with
for last 2 years. We worked, played, worshiped, cried and lived together. When
you spend that much time 24/7 with your friends you forge deep meaningful
relationships which make it very difficult when the time of departure comes.
At the same time I grieved the farewell of some of my closest friends I
looked forward in eager anticipation to my time “home” for the summer, although
knowing it would be time all too soon to say goodbye to them as well. My time
stateside in the summer always seems to go so quickly and yet also seems a lot
longer than it actually is. I love getting to be home in the summer. When you
have limited time with your family and friends you must be intentional and make
sure it is quality time. I gave my nephew Crew lots of hugs and kisses, went on
walks, shared meals, chats and coffees with friends and family, rested and
recharged.
Crew is a great date!
3 of my favorite people! Charley, Cutler and Crew |
This summer home has been a bit different than most for me. In June my
brother Scott, his wife Becca and my nephew and niece Cutler and Charley moved
to Knoxville, Tennessee. I am so proud of them for stepping out in obedience to
go where the Lord led, it does come at a cost for many however. Before I left
Midland almost 4 years ago to serve with Mercy Ships all of my immediate family
lived within 10 miles of each other. Now I am living in Africa, my brother in
Tennessee and my sister and parents in Midland. It’s a big change after having
us all in West Texas my entire life. I’ve found that after almost 4 years of
living in a place with frequent goodbyes, in some ways they get easier, but it
was strange being the one saying goodbye to my brother and his family as they
left Midland for Knoxville 4 weeks ago even knowing I would be coming to visit
soon.
In just 2 days I will be boarding a plane to return to the Africa Mercy
where it is docked in Durban, South Africa. My heart is all over the place. How
do I do a second set of hard goodbyes here in Tennessee before I leave the
States once again? How do I grieve the departure of many of my close friends
from last year in a healthy way while eagerly embracing the new crew that God
is bringing in this year? I know God is in the middle of all of this! I will
trust him with my heart and know that he has the absolute best in mind for me
no matter what it may or may not look like.
Thank you once again to all of you who make it possible for me to serve
with Mercy Ships. Your prayers, encouragement and support are invaluable to me!
Some pictures from the summer:
I do love the West Texas sunsets
from my parents back porch!
Amazing friend and alone time in Colorado!
Dollywood with my brother and his family!
Love the update and hearing your sweet heart for family & friends. Thank you for your obedience to teach on the Big Boat! Love you Shea Payne
ReplyDeleteI loved reading this! You are an encourager! Miss and love you sweet friend and former roommate lol. - Serena Xiao
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