Friday, September 15, 2017

Intermissionary Retreat-Thank You

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I wanted to say thank you to all of you who are partnering with me to go to my Intermissionary Retreat tomorrow. God has provided above and beyond what I needed for my flight and my retreat. Thanks to each of you who gave so generously. 

I will be flying out first thing in the morning. 

Please pray for:

-Great time to process what I have experienced and learning what it looks like to integrate that here
-Direction for the next season
-Connection with a community I can continue to walk out this re-entry process with

Thanks again so much for your generosity and prayer! 


Wednesday, August 30, 2017

Intermissionary Retreat-A Request

I want to start this blog by once again thanking each of you who supported me during my 4 years of serving with Mercy Ships in Africa. I can't believe I have been stateside now for 8 months. It seems like yesterday I left the ship to return to Texas. The transition back to American life has been amazing, hard, wonderful, trying, lonely and full of new opportunities for growth.

As you may remember Mercy Ships sent me to a debrief one month after I returned from Africa with Barnubs Zentrum. I did not realize before I went that after one month off the mission field I was not even close to ready to process everything I had seen and experienced. God still used that time for other things but now I am am ready to connect with other missionaries and learn how to use what I experienced and learned in Africa to furthering God's kingdom right where I am. 


Girl Catch Fire Retreats September 16-23 offers me the opportunity to do just that. 
Intermissionary Colorado is a debriefing and reentry retreat for global workers returning to their passport nations, or taking a break from global service.  

At Intermissionary, the goal is threefold: 
-renew your connection to God
-calm your mind and rest your spirit 
-create a plan for the next phase of your life.

Reentry has been difficult and I believe God wants to use this retreat to speak to me as well as bring direction on what the way forward looks like. Although I am working full time, after selling everything to move to Africa it has taken time and money to set up a home again.

Would you consider partnering with me to go to this retreat? 

1. Pray for God's direction and provision
2. Give towards my flight from Knoxville to Denver (approx $350)
3. Give towards my retreat fee ($900 covering food, lodging and training materials) 

To give to the retreat fee:

All donations coming in now are going to me with the retreat being 2 weeks away. There is no need to designate who it is for. 

To help with my flight:

My PayPal email is

Cash or check can be sent to
Shea Payne
2030 Willow Loop Way Apt 203
Knoxville, TN 37922 

Please let me know if you have any questions! 

Thanks again for supporting me so faithfully! 


Saturday, June 17, 2017

6 Months In-Another Look at Transition

As I sit by the lake watching the sun rise and writing this blog several of my close friends are preparing to leave the Africa Mercy for the final time and return to their passport countries. My thoughts and prayers drift to them often because I know a small piece of what lies ahead for them. 

It’s been 6 months now since I returned from my floating home in Africa. In some ways, it seems like it was just yesterday and in other ways it feels like years. As I was preparing to return to the US many of my friends who preceded me in the reentry process encouraged me that I would need to give myself a lot of grace and time to adjust. I had no idea what lie ahead for me. I knew I was returning to Texas first to spend time with family and friends and to rest. My first few months consisted of just that. I was so thankful to be near the people I had been separated by thousands of miles for 4 years. I had lots of time with my family, or sitting by the fire reading, or going for walks. It was a time of much needed rest and recovery. 

I was not experiencing the grief and hardship I had expected to when I arrived back stateside. I was just really happy to be back. In March I visited my brother and his family in Knoxville, Tennessee. As soon as I landed here God made it clear this is where he wanted me for my next season. I returned to Texas, spent a week packing up and saying goodbye once again and then boarded a plane to begin yet another transition. It was very difficult to say goodbye to my family and friends once again, but a little easier knowing I was a short flight away. I was thrilled to be moving to a place where there are mountains, trees, lakes and lots of outdoor activities. I was also so thankful that God made it so clear that this is where he wanted me. I love this place! That being said, the last 2 months have been extremely difficult. I am having to grow in my faith and trust in the Lord in whole new ways. 

The grief of what I had left behind on a ship in Africa hit me full force with this second transition. I feel like I am having to re-learn how to live in my own culture again as the person I am having lived 4 years abroad. I left a ship family of people I had been intimately connected with for 4 years. I left close friends who knew me and that I knew like no other friendship I have ever experienced. We were in the trenches together for 4 years and now all of a sudden, they are ALL half a world away. My heart grieves for those friendships while also trying to connect in a new place. With the pain and grief of all the recent goodbyes it makes it that much harder for me to conquer fear and be willing to connect on a deep level here even when I know it is so worth it. I am so thankful that Gods perfect love casts out all fear. I can trust him with my heart no matter what lies ahead.

He has already been so gracious to quickly connect me to a local church, small group and I am quickly connecting with several key people that its clear the Lord has divinely connected me with. This season has not been easy but I am so thankful for the way it has increased my faith and trust in the Lord.

Thanks to all of you who have prayed and encouraged me!